Thursday, December 18, 2008

Good Food

This spoke to me so deeply. I wanted to share part, but what part?!?! Soooo, I think you should read it all. I know there are others needing to read it....I just know it......millions actually!

Peter 1 (NIV)
1 Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ, To God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia and Bithynia, 2 who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, for obedience to Jesus Christ and sprinkling by his blood: Grace and peace be yours in abundance.
Praise to God for a Living Hope
3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
10 Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care, 11 trying to find out the time and circumstances to which the Spirit of Christ in them was pointing when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the glories that would follow. 12 It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.
Be Holy
13 Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. 14 As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15 But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."
17 Since you call on a Father who judges each man's work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. 18 For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 20 He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.
22 Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for your brothers, love one another deeply, from the heart. 23For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. 24 For, "All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, 25 but the word of the Lord stands forever." And this is the word that was preached to you

Then it was gone...and then it was back???

Yesterday my beautiful kids spent a couple of hours outside playing in the leftover snow and just having a blast. Then in the afternoon it started to rain and within minutes the lovely snow was gone. Just like Western Oregon. At least it wasn't freezing rain. I hate that stuff. So the rest of the night I would occasionally check outside and it was still wet, unfrozen rain. This morning we get up....lightly raining...still unfrozen. Start to make plans for the day such as shopping for stocking stuffers. Got the baby up, took her to change her clothes, diaper, make a bottle and walked into the kitchen and what the heck? White stuff coming down like crazy. Everything already white outside. Wow. Turned my cell phone on and message after message coming through. lol Doesn't take western oregonians much to get excited! It is soooo beautiful. From a previous post.....

Ahhhh O Holy Night playing on the are playing in their is cooing....give me a moment.....

Ok....Im back. I have mentioned in a previous post how Snow was nothing but an inconvenience in my past. Especially when I was working. But there were other times too. When I lived on our farm in Eastern Oregon. When the snow stays around for months and watering and feeding animals is no small task. The husband worked and at that time I did not make my kids help with chores. If anything they were instructed to keep the little ones in the house and keep them safe. I would trudge up to our barn in the freezing weather bundled as well as possible. Milk the cow, feed the other cows, feed the chickens, gather the eggs. Break the ice from the water bowls, check the cows watering trough to make sure the self waterer wasn't frozen up (yep...happened once...overflowed...right into our basement) Make sure everyone had fresh dry straw. A few hours later do it all over again but many times the husband would be home and he would do those chores while I cooked dinner. It was good times and it was hard times. When the temps are around freezing, a cow you are milking becomes your good buddy. Even those who don't like animals may find themselves cuddling up to a cow for warmth. But for me, I loved my cow. She was beautiful and gave us great milk. She was a Jersey with beautiful brown eyes with lovely lashes and very friendly. I rested my head on her warm side many times. The best milk is in the winter though. Chilling the milk down quickly takes away any funky taste. Great butter too. I would have our cats (the ones who would survive the coyotes) and our dogs and the potbellied pig (which was a rescue) circling me waiting for some of that sweet milk to come their way. But, snow was a huge pain. Made everything hard. Driving into town. Walking to the barn. Then I started working and I really started to hate the snow.
So all that I love it. This moment right now is perfect. Lovely snow, beautiful Christmas music playing, fire burning, kids heading out to play (pray they stay safe) and baby sleeping. Just great. Good time to do some scripture reading.
Be blessed this day. If you work, don't work, have snow or no snow or whatever.... See that blessing God has for you this day!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Oh yes....

Playing with Nana on the floor
A with rosy cheeks
LB, neighbor friend V, and MK

S and J standing against the wind

Trudged through the snow to see Nana

What a sweet Sunday it has been. We had snow in Portland Oregon!!! More specifically at our house. We don't have snow often, so it's a treat and this is the first time in YEARS I have been happy to see the snow fall. To see the wind blowing like crazy swirling the snow around. One big difference? I don't have to go to work tomorrow. I didn't have anywhere to go today. Even church was cancelled. I just stayed home, decorated the tree, made home made soup and muffins, dressed and undressed kids several times today. Picked up wet clothes and sheets off the floor. My eldest son and his wife and the owners of my beautiful grandson bundled up and trudged through the snow to get here. My son wanted to play with the kids in the snow. :-) They only live about 4 blocks away. CJ slept like, a baby on the way here. He was so snuggled. It was fun today. Even the kids running in and out and getting snow all over the carpet (which quickly turned to water soaking the carpet...hence the sheets)didn't bother me. I felt the need to cook and bake and feed my kids. A compulsion so strong it couldn't be ignored. They really enjoyed it too. Thank you Jiffy company for making boxed goods. I so wanted to bake but had very little flour (bummer) so I dug out the reserves...the boxes of Jiffy muffins. The kids loved them. Anyways...I had tons of baby kisses too. Oh yum! I had both babies on the floor. It was a good day. I missed my older girl K. She was home alone. :-( also she has a fire place but no wood. Bummer. We texted often. I love my kids.
So time to post some pics and get back to decorating the tree and call the last of the kids in.
We had a great day. Much fun!!!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

The Tree Hunt

So, there are several (all but me) in my family who think we need to load the family up, drive to a farm, search in the rain and mud, then saw down the perfect Christmas tree. Then sell my fine china (not that I have any) in order to pay for said tree (it USE to be cheaper to cut your own). I have done this for many years and to be honest. The only part of it I like is seeing the smiles on the faces of my kids. But when I was a single mom, I had an artificial tree (aka FAKE) and guess what? The kids still smiled. When we would dig it out of storage, place the synthetic boughs appropriately, hang the lights and ornaments it still brought joy. But then I remarried and thus back to the trudging for a tree again. Yes there is an aspect I love about real trees. The smell...but pretty much...that's it! I have had my fill for a lifetime.
After last years hunt (because the cut your own trees are so expensive) I had actually talked my husband into letting me get an artificial so I was prepared to do my own hunting......and then it happened. We got new kids. Kids who had never been to a tree farm. Kids who had never walked through mud to find the perfect tree and then participate in cutting it down. So, I agreed. Yes....let's take out a small loan and go and buy a 'U-cut' tree. Grandma was so wonderful to offer to keep baby girl home where it is wind and rain free. So, here are some of the pics. We happened to choose a day that the wind blew the hardest and the most rain was falling for the month....but hey....we have a tree. A tree which is now sitting in the carport drying off! We also took my eldest daughter K so she too could get her first (living on her own) tree. One concession? We support local family businesses. So, today the tree comes in the house along with the dead needles and spiders...........<things that are right, pure, praiseworthy....ok ok I'm still working on it!> AND yes....we did have fun. It wasn't muddy, God held back the rain while we were picking out and cutting the tree. It was fun listening to the kids play Marco Polo in a Christmas Tree forest. To hear the littles ones laugh as the tree started to fall was great. LB was the one to do the final cut this year. Each year all the kids take a turn cutting and only one gets to do the final cut. So LB was the winner this year....with help from Papa L. We did yell timber during the whole second it took for the tree to fall. The kids were happy...they had a great time and once Papa L's wallet and keys and anything else he had in his pockets dries out he will say he had a great time too. I do have a BEAUTIFUL family.

Friday, December 12, 2008

My Christmas desire

As part of our homeschooling we always do bible study first. What I have chosen to do is pick a scripture each week and we talk about it for the entire week. We have discussions and we have exercises I have created to help them (us) memorize the scripture. I have NEVER been able to memorize scripture. I have just never had the memory for such things. Same reason I have never been able to memorize multiplication facts and MANY other things. It's frustrating but it is what it is.
Some of what we have studied has been the Ten Commandments, the two greatest commandments (Matthew 22:37) and others. This week our study is one of my favorite scriptures. Philippians 4:8. I love this scripture. It's beautiful. It's what I want to attain. I want to daily have my thoughts on such things but for anyone who knows me this is opposite of my personality. I am a worrier. I am a fretter. I am judgmental. Life has not be horrible to me but most of my life has been a struggle. Be it my life decisions or not.
The last 4 years have been some of the hardest. I will spare the gory details but they have been the hardest and the darkest. God has chosen this time to bring Philippians 4:8 back into my life. He knows what I need. He knows what would turn my life around. He knows what foundation my kids need to build on, they do after all carry my genes. Christmas time is one of my favorite times of year. It's beautiful. It's sentimental. It's full of lights and music. All my favorite. Sadness tries to creep in and steal my joy. Christmas' of past. People who have come and gone (and many of them still living). Christmas where we had no money and yet it was the best Christmas ever. The one Christmas day that I spent alone. Christmas no matter how we celebrate it, happened. Christ was born. Doesn't matter when or how the stable really looked. We know, believe and celebrate that he was indeed born. Our King came to earth as a baby. For us. FOR US! No sadness is due. It's only truth and beauty. So this Christmas I ask God to help me heal and hold onto this verse. This verse to Transform my mind. Transform my life. After all we all were given the best Christmas present ever. A Savior!

Philippians 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anythings is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.

Monday, December 8, 2008

A day with Santa

The Gang
(The baby's really were happy....)S, A, and CJ

LB and MK

CJ (my sweet grandson)

Precious Baby Girl

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Christmas Kickoff

Dinner with my friend was great. It's always great to share some time with her. It's never enough time, but sweet it was. Dinner was fantastic. My fav...Olive Garden.
We had a good day yesterday. We took the kids to see Santa and have photo's taken. We were there my grandson also. Last year my adult son J was working at the same place and was the photographer. We took the two girl (S and A) and as he got ready to take their pic he said "Girls I have a surprise...Emily is pregnant" and he caught them in midst's of gasps! So that is how they found out about their nephew coming. Yesterday we had their pics taken with their little nephew. We don't get the pics til today so can't post yet. Then I had a pic taken with the foster kiddos. First M and L and then baby P. She wouldn't smile because she was ready for a nap and the photographer didn't try very hard but she still looked darling.
Then we spent the afternoon at my house. Eating lunch and watching Narnia. Non of the kids watched the whole movie. They lost interest. We then bundled up the babes and headed to Fairview City hall where my son A was part of the choir singing at the tree lighting. We met Grandma and Poppy and my daughter in-laws parents there. There was another Santa there (with a REAL beard) and he took alot of time with each child. They had crafts, coffee, cocoa, horse drawn buggy's, music, and radio Disney. We had fun. Cold but tolerable because we didn't have the 'east winds' blowing like usual. My grandson slept through the whole event. My baby girl wanted to be held so she could see the lights. I love Christmas...I love the music and the lights. It was a nice day. I was able to be with most of my kiddos and I got to juggle two babies all afternoon. Lots of wet kisses!!! Yum.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Dinner out

Wow...I can't believe it. I get to go to dinner with my best friend and with no kids in tow. Will I know how to carry on a conversation without interruptions from little ones? Will I know how to finish a thought? That's the great thing about best friends. You can go weeks months and even years without actually talking and just pick right back up again and talk for hours.

God truly brought this friend into my life. He is the one that connected us. Her name is Amy. A name very dear to my heart. It was through working at the Red Cross we met. We didn't really become friends though until she encouraged me to apply for a job in her department. God blessed me with that job. That was the best years of my life within the Red Cross. I had many good times in my 10 years there, but the time I was in Special Collections (for 4 of those years) was the best. The people in the department were funny, loving, and oh so supportive. We all became very good friends. At one point Amy even became my boss (with my mentoring...ha ha ha)...if you want to call her that. She was a manager and that is what she did. She managed the department but she was never a 'boss' to us. We grew so close. If we could have stayed the same department, running the way we knew best, and running the way that WORKED we all could have stayed in a happy world longer. But as all corporations work, there is always someone else higher on the ladder who comes up with stupid ideas that rocks the boat.

She is at Red Cross and I am at home. I will admit she has been a much better friend to me than I have to her. She stays in contact and makes arrangements to come and see me. She is truly wonderful.

This woman is Godly, kind, gentle, compassionate, loving, hardworking, dedicated, understanding, and loves to laugh. Could you ask for anything more (maybe She is a perfect friend and I am so richly blessed with her and by her. AND tonight we get each other all to our ourselves....for a few hours anyways.
When we get to heaven she will be one of the ones in charge of much but you won't know it because she will still be floating around with the likes of me! :-) I love ya girl.

The Lord Bless you and Keep you and The Lord make His face to shine upon you and give you peace!

Numbers 6:24

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Life Changes

I'm not sure why it's so easy to get on a pitty pot but it is. This darn flesh is so consuming sometimes. It's been a rough week but then unexpected events happen and your perspective is changed. A dear sister in the Lord may have a cancerous tumor on her shoulder. I know she will have complete victory in this but consider the fact she went in to see about a torn rotator cuff. Wham...then she is hit with the big C word. Life changed.
Another sister in the Lord has been working on getting an adoption of two older siblings. Siblings to her 3 adopted children. It has not be an easy road for her and on top of that she is expecting her 3rd bio in February. Her husband planning to go to Ethiopia in January to get the older two. Then this morning, however, the unexpected. She starts bleeding, goes to the hospital and the baby is delivered by C section within an hour. Now she is recovering from surgery and we are all praying her and baby will be fine. Life changed.
So do I REALLY have much to be sad or mad or worried about? NO! I have it so good and yet it never seems to be good enough. God has allowed me to have what I have and I have more than many. It may not be what I want or desire but it is my life and it is divinely the life I am suppose to have.
I pray for healing of my friends. I pray for strength of the new baby. I pray her lungs mature and do what they need to do. I pray we all live in a greater faith because of his plans. His mercy. His love. So when life changes, we just step over the bump without hardly noticing and just continue down the road. I need greater faith. I need deeper faith. I need faith in order to have greater, deeper peace! I need peace. I WANT peace.

Please pray for my friends the Friesens Their adoption goes to court tonight and also pray for their new baby daughter who is 2 months early.
God had a plan. That plan is unfolding. His ways are not our ways.....thankfully!

May the Lord Bless You and Keep You.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Ahhhh Gobble Gobble up that food.....

It is Thanksgiving Eve and I am looking forward to tomorrow. My mom, one of the greatest women to have ever walked this earth, has had Thanksgiving at her home for several years now. She was able to buy a new home a few years ago and is so in love with it. Prior to that, she lived in a tiny 2 bedroom fourplex that had a 1 step kitchen. Any direction you turned it only took one step (if that) to reach each counter, the stove, or the fridge. The dining room only a tad larger than that. So? Now she has a huge kitchen with a breakfast nook, a large dining room and a large living room just off the dining room. One year we were able to get over 40 people (excuse me...not just people but family) in there. It was GREAT! My mom was flying high and we all had a great time. We won't have that many this year (darn) but because it blesses my Mom so to have Thanksgiving there I am MORE than happy to go to her house. To see her so happy makes me happy. To see her up and able to fix the meal makes me happy. She had such a rough few months. It's good to see her more like herself. But is dad going to do the dishes? Oh wait....he only needs one hand to hold onto his cane. He can't shrug his duties just because of a minor hip replacement surgery!!!

What I am thankful for:
My Beautiful Healthy Family
My Beautiful Home
For Beautiful Food
and above all my Beautiful Creator who loves me no matter what. Even though I am not loveable (most of the time) he still died on the cross for me. He so loved me he wanted to give, even me, a way into eternal life.
As the song goes...."Thank you Lord for saving my soul. Thank you Lord for making me whole. Thank you Lord for giving to me, Thy Great Salavation so rich and free!"
Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Monday, November 24, 2008

A Noisy Quiet Moment

It's windy and cold here in Portland today but with the sun shining the kids just HAD to go outside. Baby is taking a nap, A is off to basketball practice, S is at Grandma and Poppies (her other home) and the 3 left are outside riding scooters terrorizing the neighborhood. We have neighbors who have yelled at the kids for making too much noise. The neighbors down the road just sold their home because they were so tired for being harassed about their kids. Kids playing outside yelling and screaming and riding bikes. It's sad. Kids can't be kids anymore. They need to be outside. Kids need to make noise. Kids need to be free to have some fun. I like the sound of them playing outside. I temper the screaming sometimes (it gets a bit much) but other than that.....noise outside made by kids is great. The same neighbors who have yelled at my kids are also the ones who have a dog who would bark everytime we went outside AND you can hear the football game blaring on weekends. Funny how the sounds of kids playing and having fun is an irritation to some. But right now...the sound of a quiet house is so sweet. I can hear the clocks ticking and fish tank pump running. Hmmmmmm....maybe I should go check on the kids outside. Quiet that's something to fret about!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I can't imagine

I can't imagine what it would be like to not be able to feed my children. I can't imagine it and I pray to God I never experience it. Have we become complacent to children starving? Is that possible? I believe so. I have. I have not thought about it for a while. I have not done anything about it for a while. On other blogs I have seen pictures and read stories of children starving in Haiti's. Is this even on the news? I admit I watch the news rarely but what I have watched never showed the devastation of the floods, I NEVER saw a story about the schools that collapsed, and I never see stories about starving children in Haiti or anywhere for that matter. I see an occasional newspaper or magazine story. I see an occasional commercial, but no story on tv news. Then I read the blogs who share this information and it breaks my heart. As I get so tired of cooking, I see pics of little kids on the brink of death. Literally on the brink. Having no food for my kids.....watching them starve. I can't imagine.

I can't imagine not having drinking water. I don't do what I can to save water. I still shower almost daily. I still do tons of laundry. I let the water run until warm in order to rinse my mouth after brushing my teeth. BUT inside my heart there is a fear of not having drinking water. Truly, sometimes when I get me a glass of water I look at it and give thanks to God for it. I don't care that is full of chlorine even. It's clean and it's drinkable.

When I lived on a farm we had well water that was not drinkable. It was sulfur water. It made the entire house smell. The gas from the water eroded copperware off my walls. It even turned the discolored the matting on a picture hanging on the wall. It was nasty and I always felt I smelled. Then we were blessed to drill a new well. That time we got clear water BUT it was iron heavy. The house smelled better but I still could not drink it. So when people complain of city water, I say in my mind "you have no idea what it's like not to have drinkable water." And truly I don't either. When we had the sulfur water we would drive 15 (key word drive) minutes to our in laws and fill the large containers. It was such a hassle. But now I know there are people (mainly women) in this world who walk for miles to fill their containers with dirty, muddy water. Water that can kill them. I just can't imagine not giving my child a drink of life sustaining water and having them dehydrate. I can't imagine.

So much heaviness on the heart. It is too heavy for some. I understand. Many who are advocates don't, but I do. Sometimes what is going on in your life is almost more than you can deal with. So a blind eye must be turned to the true tragedies going on around us in order to stay sane. I don't turn a blind eye but I do lift up tied hands. So I pray. I pray for all those suffering. I pray for all those who are doing what they can to help. I pray for Jesus to come SOON.

Because I can't imagine what it's like and I pray with all I am I never experience it! Come Lord Jesus, Come.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

3 birthdays

So our lovely M just turned 8. She is a blessed girl because she was able to have 3 THREE birthdays. She had a 'Princess Tea Party' on Saturday, her real birthday (celebrated with a powdered/raspberry filled donut with a candle in the middle for breakfast) on Tuesday, then a family party tonight with cupcakes and presents. She LOVED every sugared moment of it. This special attention has made her very happy. I even received a random hug yesterday which is unlike her. We have several Hannah Montana and High School Musical items now floating around the bedroom.

Her life is not the way she would have it. Her parents are not where they should be. But right now, by God's Grace she is loved, she is safe, and she is being blessed by His goodness. God knows what the plans for her future are and I pray with all my heart she walks in those plans. I pray God will be the father she desires. I pray she allows him to consume her heart. I pray she is blessed beyond words all the days of her life.

Pic of Silly princess'

Saturday, November 15, 2008


We had a our date night last night. I must say the movie 'Fireproof' it is AWESOME! We loved it. I teared up I don't know how many times ,and I actually laughed OUT loud. I am anxious to see it again. We are sending my son J and his wife (you know, the two that graced us with a grandson!!!) to see it tonight.
Kirk Cameron is fantastic. What a great actor. The woman who played his wife...not so much. She just wasn't a great actress but she did ok. I am glad we saw it. I would love a miracle or two in my marriage was a movie. All my life I have hoped for the scenario's in the movies and it just doesn't happen. The drama in the movie last night was very true to life though and the only thing that gives me hope about the ending to that movie being a possibility is because of the God I serve. He can do all things.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Moose Dogs

I have mentioned my moose dogs on my blog before and I actually got a picture the other day of both of them together. Usually if they are together, Lilly (the Dane) is sprawled on the floor and Sirion (the Weimer) is snuggled all up into her belly. Sorry for the bright eyes (no time for editing)...they are not alien dogs...only Moose Dogs! They drive me crazy and yet I just love them. Especially Sirion. He is a rescue. We found him at the animal shelter and he was nothing but skin and bones. I took a huge leap of faith (or made a really stupid decision at the time) and adopted him. He was 3 years old, not altered, starved and we had no history of him. I can't believe I wanted to bring him home. It could have been a huge disaster. BUT...he has turned out to be the GREATEST dog I have ever owned....and my family can attest I have owned plenty. He did great with the kids, with Lilly, and the cat. He is house broken and he is not food aggressive. He is a lover and he loves to be called handsome. His down side that almost sent him back to the pound (by L) was his separation anxiety. Oh boy...did I have some messes to clean and we still need to replace the bathroom linoleum due to scratching. But we bought a kennel and all is well. He even puts himself into it at night to sleep. We don't lock him at night, he just goes in and sleeps all night.
When we first brought him home I had to get up with him every hour to go 'potty.' Now he sleeps through the night. He weighed 50lbs when we got him (he weighed 40+ when the shelter got him) and he now weighs a whopping 105. He's a tiny chubby...but the doc says he is on the bigger side for his breed body frame wise and it seems to be a good weight for he's good! He is a dear. I adore him.
As for dream dog turned nightmare! I have always wanted a dane and we were given her as a gift. She was a doll as a puppy (though my mom says she wasn't a puppy..puppies are and we raised her through the puppyhood. Blah!!! I said I wouldn't have a puppy...and again I say...I will NEVER have a puppy again. What a horrible time. A new marriage, a new blended family AND a new puppy. She ruined the carpet, the trim on the walls, the end of my daughters bed, AND all the puppy toys. You know the ones to keep them busy and to keep them chewing on things other than your own stuff...yeh right!!! She has a been a huge pain in my butt. She never leashed trained, we take her out the door and she goes berserk! IF she gets out the door...she is gone. She takes off and doesn't look back. She barks at everything. She vomits every couple of months and emits a foul odor (besides the nasty gas she has daily). AND to top it off....she drools!!! I hate that the most. It is on my walls, the carpet, the pictures on the walls, the piano....and I even found some of my ceiling fan. A fan that was turning at the time!!! Now that's talent! She only weighs 115, not a big dane. The reason we still have her? She is sweet and the kids LOVE her. She is so loving. But when she has gone on to doggy heaven (if they let her in) I will do the happy dance with a tear in my eye.....Sad but happy.
We love the 'Big Dog' phrase..."Dead Dogs wag no Tails" sorry...but the kids are big 'Pirates of the Caribbean' fans so it made us laugh!!!
That is my Doggy tail....tale!!!
Our moose dogs....Sirion and Lilly

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Date night

We had a wicked storm move through yesterday that hit Washington harder than Oregon. I enjoyed it though. There was no thunder and lightening (which I hate) and I no longer live in a home that is surrounded by huge fir trees so I was able to enjoy it. Lots of blowing rain. Maybe it was just my mood but it was just peaceful to me.
Found out yesterday the foster baby will be with us a least until February, that is when the next court session will be held. So, it was good news and bad news. We of course are not ready to lose her. She is so precious, so beautiful and we enjoy her very much but on the other hand the longer we have her the harder it will be when she goes back to her bio Mom. I pray God's will for her life. I pray for protection over her. I pray if she does go back that she will be loved and kept safe. This is not an easy road for me but I know it's the road I am to be walking and I know God will get me through what I need to get through. I pray victory over the situation.
My husband and I will get going on a date Friday afternoon. We are going to see 'Fireproof' finally and we get to have dinner together. It's been a looooong time since we have been on a date. I am so excited. I am thrilled we get to see the movie. I didn't think it would still be in the theaters. I guess it's a divine appointment. Pray for our sitter...... lol

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Ephesians 6:12

Not sure why, but felt led to post this scripture. Must be for someone especially for today....maybe even me?!?!

Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Monday, November 10, 2008

A newscast

Some wonderful Children of God following His leading.

He is a God of ALL people. Not a select few. Not just those that are wealthy or those that are poor. Not just for those who great teachers and those that are not. Not just for those who are healthy and those that are not. He is the One and True God. He is the Almighty and He is Love!

Football Season Came to a Close

Proud Dad
Cheesing for the camera

Receiving his award

Football season has come to an end. The hardest part of the season, aside from hoping your son doesn't get creamed on the field, is the cold weather. We were fortunate this year. Only a couple of 'cool' games and only one rainy one. Wow...that's a first.
We had the football banquet last Tuesday and our son received an award, making us quite proud. His award is......
'Defensive Lineman of the Year'
As of Wednesday, we have already started rest for the weary! lol

Extended Weekend

My public school kids have today off and tomorrow also for Veterans day. It's a nice break. They slept in until 7:00 which was nice. The best part was not having to get up and out. We could stay in our p.j.'s and take our time with breakfast. I am sitting at my pc drinking a cup of coffee while they play. Two baskets of laundry are staring at me. Yes...staring! Laundry takes on a life of it's own! It know I can not ignore it all day so it is taunting me. But until then, I will drink my coffee and posts these pics and try not to look out the corner of my eye.
Saturday I took 4 of the 6 six kids coat and clothes shopping and they were good and I didn't have to pull my hair out. They had so much fun. The highlight for L was us finding him not only a Spiderman Coat but also a Spiderman robe. He was overly excited. This boy loves soft fluffy blankets so a robe for the mornings and evenings are the perfect thing for him and to find one with!
We purchased some Hannah Montana shirts, High School Musical PJ's, and we even found a shirt for A that has Pirates of the C on it. I did managed to find them some darling dresses and two piece outfits they liked. So when we got home we had a mini photo shoot of the two girls.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Another weekend closing

Because I have nothing to talk about (if you ain't got nutin good t'say...don't say nutin t'all!)I thought I would post a few pics.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Treading water

Well I still feel as though I am just keeping my head above water but that's a good thing right? I would rather be playing in the sand on a warm beach but at least I am not sinking like a stone.
One of the challenges I am facing right now with working with the state is ALL the people in my life. They warn you but it's not until you are experiencing that the reality sinks in. I am a pretty private person when it comes to my home and my family so I knew God was going to stretch me. I wish I was like Mrs. Incredible. I love what she says "wife, mother, superhero!" yep....that's us mom's, but boy do I wish I could flexible like her. Mold and bend easily in whatever direction God would have me go. Why does my flesh have to resist.
So, back to my state visitors. I have at minimum two calls a day (except Fridays usually), at least one person comes to my house 3 days of the week and then I take one of my kids to counseling once a week. So, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday are my state free days.
Things I wish....I wish I would make my kids keep their rooms clean. I wish I wouldn't let my kids have so much 'junk.' I wish I loved doing laundry. I wish I loved the pee around the toilets from the males in my home. I wish I had one big dog and not two. I wish I didn't have a dog that drools. I wish I had the gift of hospitality. I wish I had not allowed certain people in my life to make financial decisions. I wish we were able to adopt from Ethiopia. I wish children didn't need to be adopted. I wish parents in America would see their children as the true gifts they are. I wish potato chips and Pepsi were good for you.
So now that I have some of the wishes out of the way...I pray for my home. I pray I would have the strength and motivation to care for my family, my home, my moose dogs. I pray for miracles regarding my body. I pray for miracles regarding our finance. I pray for many many things.
I thank God for what I have. I thank God for the health of my family. I thank God I am able to walk, talk, and sing. I thank God for dogs who make me laugh and feel loved. I thank God for my kids. I thank God for the opportunity to love on the kids who don't have a home right now. I thank God my kids are so well clothed I have loads and loads of laundry. I thank God for those who are able to adopt. I thank God for many things.
So thank you Lord you never give us more than we can handle. That as I am treading water you are the one who keeps me afloat.
I love you Lord

Saturday, November 1, 2008


Some weeks would just be better being skipped, but since we don't have that choice we just work at keeping our head above water.
If anyone reads this blog/post...please pray for my household...pray for me. Bind the darkness in Jesus' name.

Thank you

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad

I am going to attempt to do some catch up. This little baby of mine is going to be the death of me. We can not get her on any kind of schedule and she can not be pacified very easily except for juggling her in your arms. So, this will be an attempt to post a very important event.
The event was missed by me on my blog because I was consumed by packing and cleaning and organizing before the 'big' trip to Dland. The event? My parents anniversary....56th anniversary to be exact which was October 18th. I felt so guilty about not saying anything to them that day, I then called them from the hotel in Anaheim on Sunday the 19th. My mom informed me they too had forgotten their own anniversary! LOL....that's a first ever. They too were consumed with thoughts of the girls and I taking our trip. is my tribute to some WONDERFUL parents!
Ed and Deanna............My mom was 14 when she married my dad and my dad was 19. Oh so young. They went on to have 6 kids. Two boys and four girls. They lived in Oklahoma until 71 (I think it was 71) when they loaded up their Chevy station wagon with their 4 remaining kids and whatever personal belongings they could fit into the wagon. My poor mom had to leave everything else behind, even her eldest daughter. My sister Angie had just married (they too eventually moved to Oregon). Also around that time my mom's oldest child, my brother Ed (whom we lovingly call Bub) left home to go into the Navy. My poor Mama! Losing two children, leaving families behind and also most of their material possessions and moving to the Pacific Northwest.
Soon after moving to Oregon my brother Charlie, age 11yrs, succumb to an illness he was born with. It was devastating to my family and took a huge toll on my mom. I do not remember much about that time (I am the youngest and I was 8 at that time). I do have memories of before and after but not during. She pulled through though...for us kids I am sure. That then left 3 of us at home.
My parents had their struggles but I will brag and say I have had some of the best parents ever. They loved us, provided for us, and has helped us as adults. I am thankful to God for them. If it were not for having kids of my own I need to take care of I would be selfish and ask God to take me before he takes one of them because I can not stand the thought of living in this world without them.
They are good people. They made the best possible home they could for all of us. They have helped so many. They have loved unconditionally. They Love God and believe in Jesus. They are wonderful grandparents and wonderful great grand parents.
The tally right now is:
Grand Kids 14
Great Grand Kids 13 - plus 1 due in November and 1 due next year
Surrogate Grand Kids 1
Surrogate Great Grand Kids 2
Foster Grand Kids 3
plus all the in-laws that come with all that! Pretty large family.
Here are my parents.
I love you Mom and Dad

Newly Married

25th Wedding Anniversary

40th Wedding Anniversary

50th Wedding Anniversary

Picture taken last year

Return from the Magic Kingdom

Greetings. I have returned from our Fantasy vacation. My feet are an inch flatter and the muscles in my calves are an inch bigger. Walk, walk, walk. It was fantastic though. To see the joy and wonder on the faces of my two girls was worth every cent and every drop of sweat and every burn of every muscle in my body. The highlights were walking in between my two girls and holding their hands, or having them hug and kiss on me without notice. Two of our nights we came back to the hotel, stripped off our shoes and pants and sat on the edge of the tub (all 3 of us) and soaked our feet. Laughing, cringing, drying off at the silly 3 D shows together. Going to a 'Princess Dinner' all beautiful and glimmering with 'Pixie Dust.' Just being together and sharing in 'Magic' moments. I love them so much and I am so grateful for the blessing of them and the blessing of this trip.

The day we left (Sunday the 19th) my dad fell at church, broke his hip, and had emergency surgery to replace it. All of this happened and I was clueless until my return. They didn't want to worry us. Ugh! I shared with my Mom how I felt like a person coming out of a week long coma and having family catch me up on the things I missed. It was surreal. BUT I am thankful he is doing great and it was a hip that has been causing him pain for a long time so I think this could be a blessing in disguise.

So, it was quite a week not only for my girls and I but also for my family. God is in control and He really does know what He is doing!


Saturday, October 18, 2008

Preparing to defect

I will be spending today finishing packing and getting the home and family left behind set up to survive without me.
I feel incredibly burdened with the fact I am leaving my hard working husband home to spend his week vacation with 4 kids one of which is almost 4mths old and very needy. I am thrilled and thankful to be taking the girls on 'our' dream vacation but that doesn't remove the sadness I feel leaving the others behind. Why can't blessings in my life come without a hitch?!?! They never have....all the blessings in my life have come with burdens. Not sure why but they have.
So, with a heavy heart I will do all my preparations for my hubby and the kids. I will do it with sensitivity to the ones left behind and yet with a big smile for the two going on the trip. What a tight rope!
Pics of Mickey and friends will be posted next week.
Blessings to you all in the name of Lord.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Random Summer Pictures

Playing ball for the City of Fairview
Tilly the Tillamook Dairy cow cozying up with A
L and ALL the kids
The new grandbaby