Friday, May 29, 2009

Whew...the days are getting difficult the stress all around us abounds. We have a new stress in our home. The husband is off work with a bad knee. Not good. Not good on the finances or the my mind. NOW if he were a work horse, in the old days if he would have gotten injured I would take him out to pasture and....well....you know! Then I would go into town and buy a new one. Boy things were simpler then! (yes, kidding)
But hence I now get to juggle money, and wait hand and foot on before mentioned husband. I am not a child of God who has alot of patience when it comes to wimpy people. It's something I need to get over but chances are at my age it ain't going anywhere all too soon. When there is a job to do, you do it. I have worked many times through extreme pain because I had to do what I had to do. So when people get some discomfort and then become bedridden at the expense of others.....less than compassionate I am! Yeh, not the wife who loves and cuddles no matter what. I guess I need to work on that. Part of me desires to be, it would be so much easier. Less arguing more acceptance. The other part says....."HA, he's the strong one, the head, the leader. Suck it up and be tough!" To be honest it's the damaged heart which gets in the way. Part of it's my personality the other is history and hurts. So, I will pray for change of heart and be thankful I don't own a pasture.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

'Medika Mamba'

Please take a read of the 'Livesayhaiti' blog. This product that was created and used to save lives of children is amazing. I am excited about it...now to figure out how God would use this excitement.
Read the Blog, pray for those faithful servants, pray for this product and its use in Haiti's and worldwide, and lastly pray and see how God would use you.


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

P R A Y

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Friday, May 15, 2009

Just Somethn'

I just wanted to post something...don't really have any thing in particular to post. As I thought about it though I decided I want us to focus on 'Good.' Not the down in out stuff. Not the struggles....but on the blessings and joy and happiness.

The Creator of the Heavens and the Earth loves us. He planned and orchestrated our creation. He chose each of us before the beginning of time. He knows how many hairs are on our heads. I adore my kids but I don't even know that...I don't even know their blood type. He created all things for us. He laid out perfection for US! Even after we chose the imperfect, the dark road, even then he had a plan laid for us. The perfect finale! JESUS. How gracious and loving is that father? HIS love and grace is perfect! I am so thankful.....so so thankful. Every day I want to praise Him and each day practice praising him even MORE. In my mind, my belief in HIM is the center of my life...now I want him the reality of Him to be the center of my life.
I am not perfect and will never be on this side of Heaven...but I follow and serve the perfect one.......Jesus! !!!JESUS!!!
Psalm 119
Blessed are they whose ways are blameless, who walk according to the law of the Lord. Blessed are they who keep their statues and seek them with all their heart. They do nothing wrong; they walk in His ways. You have laid down precepts that are to be fully obeyed. Oh that my ways were steadfast in obeying your decrees! Then I would not put to shame when I consider all your commands. I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws. I will obey your decrees; do not utterly forsake me.

Walk according to the law of the Lord....walk in HIS ways!!!

Be blessed by being a blessing.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mothers Day

I love, adore, and cherish my Mom and to think.....our Father in heaven loves her even more! I can not even wrap my mind around that!
"And now these three remain: Faith, Hope, and Love but the greatest of these is LOVE!"
1 Corinthians 13:13

Thank you to those who have bore children from the womb and from the heart. To those who desire to have children. To those who work with children. To those who sponsor children. To those who pray for children! Happy Mothers Day to ALL of you!!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Casting Crowns

I love love love Casting Crowns. Several blogs ago I mentioned that I would post pics of them one day. Well today is the day. I worked on a lot of Homeschooling Lesson Plans and hence listened to the radio a lot today and many times heard CCs music. Love it. They are my all time favorite Christian group. I love them because of the heart of their music and the style/sound of the music and also the band members. You can listen to each song and know and feel the song was truly inspired, lead by the Holy Spirit. The sound is pleasing to the ears and to the heart. The band members believe what they sing and play. Not only have I seen interviews of Mark Hall and was touched by his truth, but when I met him, Megan, and my bff (I will explain that one down farther) MelloDee they were kind, gentle, and gifted. I was truly impressed. There did not seem to be any false hood about them. How great is that. I was so blessed to meet them and see them perform when they came to Portland a couple of years ago. I won the tickets (One of the biggest blessings I have ever received) and not only did I receive tickets to the concert but also to a 'meet and greet' before the concert. Actually when I won the tickets I knew nothing of the meet and great. It was a dinner sponsored by our local radio station 104.1 the FISH. I was able to take my husband, my son James, my daughter inlaw Emily and my daughter in law Connie. We were sitting there eating when band members started walking into the food area. Wow...the first person I met was Megan. She is tall. She was very gracious and humbly posed for a pic with me. Then came MelloDee. I was so comfortable talking to her. We chatted and chatted when my husband kept trying to get my attention, when I finally turned around there stood Mark Hall. MelloDee and I joked about getting together for coffee to finish our conversation (hence the BFF comment...I joked about that with my kids for months). I of course couldn't wait to tell Mark what a blessing they are to the music industry and to me. How I appreciate his gift and told him thankyou for the music. I think there were some other bumbling fan like comments made but I don't remember what they were. I admit it...I was star struck by them. Then My hubby took our pic. It was a fantastic night. I had a great time with my husband and kids and then the concert was incredible. We all completely enjoyed it. I was truly blessed. To be honest, it was not until I met them that I gave them the number 1 position of my choice of favorite music group. To have God inspired music performed by God lovin' people is perfect.
So, I have had dreams of singing harmony on one of their songs though they don't need me....I can dream! I am not some weird stalker. Everday I check twitter to see updates. Sad...but true! They not only sing about the truth of our faith but they live it too. Just like it should be! Maybe someday soon they will return to Portland and I am sure MelloDee will look me up so we can hook up for that cup of coffee! I am sure she has thought about me many times......We have so much catching up to do.....

http://www.castingcrowns.com/

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Laughter Lives Tuesday


http://Laughter LivesThis post is part of "Laughter Lives! Tuesday" on the Riggs Family Blog. Check our their blog to read everyone else's "Laughter Lives!" posts.

One day about a week ago I was returning home with only two of my kiddos with me when the my 4 year old foster son makes a proclamation. It had been very quiet in the car and we were just pulling into the driveway when he says, "Mom?" "Yes," I say. "I changed my mind!" he sates. My mind quickly starts reviewing any decisions that had been made that day by him and coming up with nothing I say, "and what is that?" He says with pure confidence and clarity, "When I grow up, I'm going to be Spiderman instead of a Cop!" As I control the laughter that is building up in me I say what any good, honest Mommy would say..."Excellent Decision!" I am happy to know that my love and guidance in this human being has helped him to make his lifelong decision before it was too late. Hey...it's a pretty good one too...think about it. Police officers not only can be hurt but they are limited by where their cars can take them. Spiderman can climb buildings, use his webs to fly through the air and he can still clean his room as his day job!!! I can sleep much better at night now!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Two little words that carry such a punch!

So, what are the two little words that can carry such a punch. Words that can bring complete joy and also strike fear or heartbreak? The words are.... "I'm pregnant!" yep...those words. No it's not me! Wish I could say that it is, but I can't and never will again. There were three out of 4 times in my life it brought me joy to say those words....the last time was with heartache. BUT with that heartache came one of the greatest loves of my life. At a time when I needed it so desperately. My 4th child was created within me just 3 months after my 3rd child was born and while I was on birth control. My 3rd pregnancy was difficult for me so the thought of carrying another child was painful. Then the day she was born, the love that poured from her was miraculous. Even before I knew that of her I had chosen her name...the meaning was 'beloved' and she was and is. So I of all people know how a new life created is precious no matter what.
So, you may be wondering who in my life said those 'two little words' to me that turned my heart upside down? It was my 21yr old daughter K. She is not married, not even living with her BF but she is with child. Her BF is also enlisted in the Navy and goes to boot camp this August and then to God knows where. So, she will home alone while growing the baby. So, my heart broke not because of a baby but because of my girl. Knowing how hard the road is going to be for her. I was single for 7 1/2 years and worked full time and had two in daycare. I know how difficult it is. It breaks my heart for her. My other worry is for her back. In 2000 she had a 14 hour back surgery to correct her severe scoliosis. She had rods installed, 2 discs were fused, donor bone was used to recreate some of her spine and so much more. So the thought of her poor little back carrying the weight of a baby while Mommy is trying to work to make a living worries me to the depth of my heart. I know she will manage and I know she will be a great Mom but still this mommy heart had to mourn what she lost. I mourned her freedom. But after a few days of mourning, I have now replaced it with joy. Joy that is a new life created. God knows the name of the baby already. He knows the plans and purpose he has for this child. I will walk all the way with my girl. I will help her when she needs and I will hold her when she needs that too. So pray for my girl. Pray her back will stay strong as she works. Pray God would bless her with an uneventful pregnancy. Pray she will draw to HIM. Pray she will give her life fully to HIM. Pray that I will have time and strength to do what I need to do.
Sooooo I get to be a grandma again and kiss a precious little ones face......gotta love that part!!!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Time are tough. Yes I know they could be worse...or I could be living in a 3rd world country (and I give thanks to God I don't) but in my world, my nation, my life times are tough. The spiritual warfare is intense and it's exhausting. Just as I thought I saw a ray of light it clouded back over. I thought maybe I was going to get a nice breather but no, it's going to be a tough walk. All it takes is one short sentence. A sentence consisting of 2 words. A very tiny sentence to just punch you in the gut. What is this sentence? Can't share yet. Not all family members have been contacted yet. But let me tell ya. The weight on my shoulders is heavy, yet it makes my shoulders crawl clear up to the top of my head. Some days I have to remind myself to relax them.

When I first became a Christian I thought trials would come because of the name of Jesus. They would be due to my faith...because of Jesus. No one warned me that most all my trials would be within my family. Be it immediate or extended family. The hardest events I have suffered have been due to family relations. Now that I know this you would think it would make it easier, not. Now I am much older and much more tired. Breaking my spirit I think was the plan and purpose for my life. Once I get to the broken apart/down stage then I will be humble. I will be passive. I will be gentle in spirit. Will I ever get to that stage? I sure as heck hope so because the process is grueling.