Sunday, October 26, 2008

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad

I am going to attempt to do some catch up. This little baby of mine is going to be the death of me. We can not get her on any kind of schedule and she can not be pacified very easily except for juggling her in your arms. So, this will be an attempt to post a very important event.
The event was missed by me on my blog because I was consumed by packing and cleaning and organizing before the 'big' trip to Dland. The event? My parents anniversary....56th anniversary to be exact which was October 18th. I felt so guilty about not saying anything to them that day, I then called them from the hotel in Anaheim on Sunday the 19th. My mom informed me they too had forgotten their own anniversary! LOL....that's a first ever. They too were consumed with thoughts of the girls and I taking our trip. is my tribute to some WONDERFUL parents!
Ed and Deanna............My mom was 14 when she married my dad and my dad was 19. Oh so young. They went on to have 6 kids. Two boys and four girls. They lived in Oklahoma until 71 (I think it was 71) when they loaded up their Chevy station wagon with their 4 remaining kids and whatever personal belongings they could fit into the wagon. My poor mom had to leave everything else behind, even her eldest daughter. My sister Angie had just married (they too eventually moved to Oregon). Also around that time my mom's oldest child, my brother Ed (whom we lovingly call Bub) left home to go into the Navy. My poor Mama! Losing two children, leaving families behind and also most of their material possessions and moving to the Pacific Northwest.
Soon after moving to Oregon my brother Charlie, age 11yrs, succumb to an illness he was born with. It was devastating to my family and took a huge toll on my mom. I do not remember much about that time (I am the youngest and I was 8 at that time). I do have memories of before and after but not during. She pulled through though...for us kids I am sure. That then left 3 of us at home.
My parents had their struggles but I will brag and say I have had some of the best parents ever. They loved us, provided for us, and has helped us as adults. I am thankful to God for them. If it were not for having kids of my own I need to take care of I would be selfish and ask God to take me before he takes one of them because I can not stand the thought of living in this world without them.
They are good people. They made the best possible home they could for all of us. They have helped so many. They have loved unconditionally. They Love God and believe in Jesus. They are wonderful grandparents and wonderful great grand parents.
The tally right now is:
Grand Kids 14
Great Grand Kids 13 - plus 1 due in November and 1 due next year
Surrogate Grand Kids 1
Surrogate Great Grand Kids 2
Foster Grand Kids 3
plus all the in-laws that come with all that! Pretty large family.
Here are my parents.
I love you Mom and Dad

Newly Married

25th Wedding Anniversary

40th Wedding Anniversary

50th Wedding Anniversary

Picture taken last year

Return from the Magic Kingdom

Greetings. I have returned from our Fantasy vacation. My feet are an inch flatter and the muscles in my calves are an inch bigger. Walk, walk, walk. It was fantastic though. To see the joy and wonder on the faces of my two girls was worth every cent and every drop of sweat and every burn of every muscle in my body. The highlights were walking in between my two girls and holding their hands, or having them hug and kiss on me without notice. Two of our nights we came back to the hotel, stripped off our shoes and pants and sat on the edge of the tub (all 3 of us) and soaked our feet. Laughing, cringing, drying off at the silly 3 D shows together. Going to a 'Princess Dinner' all beautiful and glimmering with 'Pixie Dust.' Just being together and sharing in 'Magic' moments. I love them so much and I am so grateful for the blessing of them and the blessing of this trip.

The day we left (Sunday the 19th) my dad fell at church, broke his hip, and had emergency surgery to replace it. All of this happened and I was clueless until my return. They didn't want to worry us. Ugh! I shared with my Mom how I felt like a person coming out of a week long coma and having family catch me up on the things I missed. It was surreal. BUT I am thankful he is doing great and it was a hip that has been causing him pain for a long time so I think this could be a blessing in disguise.

So, it was quite a week not only for my girls and I but also for my family. God is in control and He really does know what He is doing!


Saturday, October 18, 2008

Preparing to defect

I will be spending today finishing packing and getting the home and family left behind set up to survive without me.
I feel incredibly burdened with the fact I am leaving my hard working husband home to spend his week vacation with 4 kids one of which is almost 4mths old and very needy. I am thrilled and thankful to be taking the girls on 'our' dream vacation but that doesn't remove the sadness I feel leaving the others behind. Why can't blessings in my life come without a hitch?!?! They never have....all the blessings in my life have come with burdens. Not sure why but they have.
So, with a heavy heart I will do all my preparations for my hubby and the kids. I will do it with sensitivity to the ones left behind and yet with a big smile for the two going on the trip. What a tight rope!
Pics of Mickey and friends will be posted next week.
Blessings to you all in the name of Lord.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Random Summer Pictures

Playing ball for the City of Fairview
Tilly the Tillamook Dairy cow cozying up with A
L and ALL the kids
The new grandbaby

Enchanted Forest Castle
Enchanted Forest Witch
Pic with Abe at Enchanted Forest
Our Friends Bob and Larry
Monkey Boy

Pool Party
Just Kickin Back
Hula Kids
Freezing Water Fun

At Blue Lake Park

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Angel Boys
Take a look at this site but be prepared to be moved into action.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes......

So, you may think this a strange post after such a heavy blog titled 'Come Lord Jesus'...but the reason I am posting about this is because right now in this world, this is of utmost importantance....well at least for my two girls. Kinda like snack time is the most important thing in the world for my 4 yr. old.
As I was growing up I had two best friends. We were poor, my two friends were not. I was from Oklahoma, my friends were from California. They would travel down to California every summer to visits family. While they were there they would go to Disneyland, Universal and other attractions. Oh how I dreamed of going to Disneyland. My heart ached to go Disneyland. In 1982 I was able to go to California with my high school singing group (Pony Pipers for those of you who live in my area). We went to Dland. It was fantastic but there was a void. Something was my family, my mom. I wanted so much to share it with her. I made a promise to myself, when I had kids I would take them to Disneyland. I would make it happen.
All the years in my first marriage there were times we had the money but my husband did not have that dream or him it was a "waste" of time and money so it was put on the back burner. I was never able to take my step kids.
In 2000 (I was then a single mother of 4) a precious and dear friend of mine went to be with the Lord. To make a long beautiful story short, she left me a small amount of money. I was stunned!!!! It was the oddest feeling. You could not feel happy about being blessed with that money because the reason you had received it was because of the loss of a loved one. What to do with the money was on my mind day and night. I wanted to be a great steward. I wanted to honor my friend. So, I paid some debts, placed some in a CD, and then I bought tickets to Disneyland for my two oldest kids, my niece, and for myself. I didn't have enough for the two little ones and they were so small I wanted to take them when they were older. So I promised them I would take them when they got older. My girl S never forgot and we have been saving ever since. Pennies here...dollars there. They have been so good at putting money in the piggy bank. It has taken us 8 years to save enough. We only have enough for the two girls and I to the dream would get closer, hotel and airfare got higher...the dream kept getting farther and farther away. Then last year my husband and I decided it would be best for him and A to stay home and for the girls and I to go ahead and go, so I am going with my husbands blessings. He has a weeks vacation and he will be home caring for our son, the foster kids, and the monster dogs while I am gone. What a sacrifice on his part.
My mind is a coaster of emotions. So excited to finally have this dream coming true yet torn that I am leaving part of my family behind and I worry about the foster kids being hurt over it and I feel guilty spending that money on something so frivolous when times are so tough. I am not trying to be cold but I am trying to survive this, so what I am doing is focusing on the fun I am going to have with my two girls. They have had to keep it a secret because of the foster kids and I told them just yesterday, no more secrets. We have to be open about it. The girls should be able to share about it and enjoy the excitement of looking forward to it and the smaller kids need to know the truth. Plus this way they can tell us what they want us to buy them.
Because I was a single mom for 7 1/2 years I couldn't afford much for my kids. We ALWAYS had our basic needs met (Thank you Lord) but extra's just didn't happen. My girls also have never had a dad (a story for a different blog). My husband is raising them as his own so he wants to bless them with this trip.
This is a major trip for us. The only state my girls have been to is Washington (which consists of jumping in the van and driving over the bridge). We have never traveled. Not only have they not been to Disneyland, they have never flown on a plane. I am so excited for them. We plan to have Lot's of fun. We plan to laugh and play and sing and swim and sleep and enjoy each other. They are tweens, the next few years will be tough so I am going to enjoy this moment in time when they can still be my princesses. We are even booked to attend a princess dinner. We have hair glitter, plastic tiara's, and used dresses to dress them up in. We are going to live a few days of imagination and enchantment. A few days from reality!

So, my girls and I leave Oct 19th. They are both packed already. This will be a great time of togetherness and it will be the end of a lifelong (just about) dream. When we return I will be able to say I have taken my kids to Disneyland...dream fulfilled. The grandkids and great grandkids are on their own. I have had to carry this dream for so long already! They can take me...I am sure I can get around with a walker or in an electric scooter.

My next dream vacation??? and my hubby! Give me...say, ten years, and I should have enough for that trip!!!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Come, Lord Jesus

The new little one keeps me busy. She is most content sitting on my lap or being held up on my shoulder. It's great but daily chores sure don't get done like they use to.

We sure love this little pixie. She is just a little doll. We call her Tink, short for Tinkerbell. Not only because she is such a little pipsqueak but she has the personality like Tink. Cute and feisty. I feel our days with her are limited. Which, don't get me wrong, that's a great thing. Reunification is what this is about if it's a safe and healthy home, but it will still be a loss on our part. I do feel sooner than later would be better though. Not sure how we would get through it if any of these kids are with us for an extended period of time and then are placed back with their family. I do know, however, God will get us through it. It sounds gut wrenching but God will not give us more than we can bear so I know we will handle it.

God Bless those who are in the process of adoption be it nationally or internationally. I recently read of a family who is adopting a sibling group of 5 here in the U.S. how beautiful is that?!?!? The sibling groups are the ones that pull at my heart the most along with children with HIV and disabilities. To not be able to find a home because of the size of your family or because you have been diagnosed with disease or disability, how hopeless that must feel. It breaks my heart to think of beautiful children having no hope, no family, no feeling of belonging. Children...the closest thing to God spiritually, and yet this world has stolen so much from them and leaves them so broken. Thank you God for placing that burning desire in those who take the leap of faith and step over incredible boundaries to love those children.

The other thing that breaks my heart is human trafficking, especially that of young children. It fills me with rage when I hear of it and see shows on it. I do not understand or believe that more can not be done to stop it or at least help more children get out of it. It's crazy how we know what terrorists are up to because our government has 'ways,' but we can't break rings of people from buying, stealing, beating, filming, raping, and selling children all to make money?!?! I don't believe more can't be done, it's more like WON'T be done. Judgment on my part says it's because there is money to made by some of the people who have power to stop it and then there are those who are rich who want to partake in the "services" these people have to offer. Gut wrenching.

There is so much to pray for it can make a persons heart so heavy, so I cry out....
Revelation 22:20
"He who testifies to these things says, "Yes, I am coming soon." Amen. Come, Lord Jesus."

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Words of power

So, it is not below me to steal...I mean borrow good stuff when I find it. Be it a great picture or great words of wisdom. Just this morning as I was taking a coffee break and reading one of the blogs I frequent, I came across this decree! I don't think she will mind me borrowing it for purposes of spreading it. It pierced my heart...may it pierce yours too!

"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth,where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures inheaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is,there your heart will be also." (Matthew 6:19-21)
There is no greater return on an investment than knowing that you have invested your heart in someone that needs you...that you have given any part of yourself to save a life...that you have been HIS hands and feet....I say REVOLT against WORRY about the economy...GIVE MORE, LOVE MORE...BE MORE....this is NOT a time for fear.........PROVE where your treasure is....Go ahead...I DARE YOU!!!

Nightmare on Porter Street

Rough night. One of the the unfortunate aspects of foster care is many times the children come with teeth that are in great need. Our little MK is such one. She has had 3 appointments consisting of extractions, fillings, nerve treatments, spacers, and a retainer-spacer. Yesterday was her last extraction and what a journey. The appointment went fine. By the time we got home she was crying from discomfort and mouth full of blood. It took me 3 hours to get the hole to keep from bleeding. She was starving in the process and I finally let her eat at 8p.m. POOR baby!!!! I felt sooooo sorry for her. As she ate I was in fear of it starting to bleed again but it didn't . Whew! She went to bed at 9 and all was well. UNTIL midnight when I felt hands touching my back ( I had only been asleep for about 15 minutes) so as I pulled my heart out of my throat and turned over to see who it was, there stood a character from a gory horror flick! Blood all over her hands, her face, her neck, her hair. I flew out of bed. I won't go into gory details but we got her cleaned up and out (her mouth) and repacked it. Too tired to strip the bed and didn't want to wake the other ones, I covered her bloody pillow case and sheets with towels. She fell fast asleep. Before she went to sleep I told her she could stay home from school. She slept till 8:00. I checked on her 3x's during the night and only the gauze sticking our of her mouth was yucky. All is well this morning. She ate breakfast, showered and found her money from the tooth fairy Now she is playing and harassing her brother so she must be fine! Boy, Kids! What an adventure!
I have made her promise me to always take good care of her teeth, drink milk, drink pop rarely, and smile always!!!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Oregon Foster Care Article

Here is a great article about foster care in Oregon. My prayer is more people Nationwide would consider opening their homes to help these kids. Let's show them what it means to be loved, how they can be a priority in someones life, and especially let's teach them that Jesus loves them!

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Homeshool Outdoor School

This has been a busy week...but aren't they all anymore for everyone? The two girls S and A made it to Homeschool Outdoor school on Monday. I drove them to West Salem and dropped them off. They were very excited and little nervous. I went back on Wednesday to pick them up. They didn't seem to connect with anyone there but they said everyone was nice and they had a great time and would go again. So that was success. They participated in Archery, fishing, Target shooting (with a bb gun) science experiments and so on.....S caught her first fish, a Rainbow Trout and then released it. They had many story's to share. A shot a bow and arrow for the first time and hit the target!

I sure miss them when they are gone. I can never help but worry about them. Such as are they scared, nervous, cold, feeling left out and so on. Then I pick them up and they are glowing from having so much fun.

What a blessing there are such events. What a blessing these two girls are to my life! I cherish them! They are truly treasures to my soul.