Saturday, March 26, 2011


We must fall on our knees and faces and lift up our prayers to the Living God, the Creator. Intercede for this little beauty and for his family. His God created his family and the darkness of this world is trying to interfere. The heart of the 'judge' can be changed. This battle can be won.

Please read No Greater Joy

God is listening, He hears our prayers and He knows our show him our actions. Live your faith.

Thursday, March 24, 2011


My niece and nephew (he happens to be the 'Captain') have been part of a band of pirates here in the Portland Oregon area for a few years now....and, well I won't waste your time with words...enjoy the video and spread the word.


We Are The Moms

We, as a family, had a huge step in the right direction this past Sunday. The bio mom of our two (pre) adopted kiddos came to church. It was fantastic. I could see how happy she was to be there and I think it proved to her the trust she can have in us to 'foster' a relationship between her, us, and the kids. There are certain people in my family that didn't think we should be that open. That we should give her the least possible, the every 3 months visit, but God says we are to love. Giving her the least amount of time with the kids possible is not showing her love. Giving her all the time possible with the kids and with us and loving on HER is showing HER love...showing her Gods love. So, she came to church service and the kids were thrilled. It went great. She now has my cell number too which I gave to her willingly. Now we have an open line of communication. That thrilled her beyond words.

God is the creator of ALL things. He loves all of us equally and for that I am thankful. The bio mom made some mistakes in her past...haven't we all? Her mistakes in the kingdom of God are no bigger than my mistakes. There is, after all, only one sin that can keep anyone out of heaven, the sin of unbelief. So pretty much...her and I are equal. We are suffering different consequences of our past mistakes but we are the same. We share the same kids. We love the same kids. We are equal. We are the Moms of MK and LB and we are ALL children of the KING!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

A Lovely morning in Oregon

It is a lovely morning here in Oregon. The sunshine greeted me this morning which was great. It made want to throw open the blinds and welcome it in. Don't get me wrong...I love rain, I really do...but boy that sunshine sure picks up the heart. It's a little cloudy again but at least the wind isn't blowing horribly.
Lot's to do today. I gave 3 haircuts this morning, waited to do my house chores until the showers were done, then in a bit a run to Target, then later we are attending a wedding. The kids are very excited about that...well the girls are that is. It should be a nice time of fellowship. The groom is Cuban and I hear there will be 'Cuban' food there so I am interested in trying that. The husband will be happy there is food there...he won't care what kind. So everyone should enjoy that part of it.

My girl in Hawaii still doesn't have a laptop and that does not make me happy. I miss seeing her and my grandsons face and talking with them. I love to sing 'our' little song to baby W. He loves when Nana sings him his song and he always claps and says "yea" at the end. I love it. I did send him a video from my phone of me singing. I heard he liked that. I ache so badly to see them. I am praying {begging} God to provide a way for me to get to that island to see my kids and welcome my new precious grandson when he arrives. Nothing is impossible with my heavenly Father...just have to figure out if that would be His will for me or not. He does know what is best.

I slept in this morning and have now spent too much time on the computer so now it's time for my shower. This country is so blessed....I am so blessed!!!

I have posted a couple of pics of the kids I take to church on Tuesday nights...they are great kids!!! The second picture is of them being 'normal.'

Friday, March 18, 2011

Changes are a comin'

We have had some changes come about in the last few months and I know more are on the horizon. The biggest change is that of the status of our 2 remaining foster kiddos. Their parents made loving difficult decisions to leave the kids with us. Believing it was what was best for them. I was stunned. It is such a bittersweet change. My heart breaking for their parents and for the kids and yet happy and blessed that God chose us to raise them. What an honor. They are amazing kids. Beautiful on the inside and the outside. They will, of course, stay in contact with their parents. I know in my heart their parents are their parents and always will be. I am not replacing them. I will now foster a relationship with them to keep them all connected. They all love each other very much and I know that will continue. The kids accepted the news pretty well. I think it was a little bit of a surprise especially for MK because she has looked to the day when she would return, but yet she also received it with relief. Happy a decision had finally been made and that they would no longer be flopping around in limbo.

Today is a big day. I meet with bio mom to work on some visitation stuff. We had a rough draft already which she accepted and today we are going to discuss more and get more detailed. I am not sure at this point if bio Dad has ever made contact with the mediator. He is struggling with other life issues right now, sadly, and it has been challenging. Praying he can pull himself back up for the sake of the kids and for his own sake as well.
So, in the next few months we will be an official family of 8. The kids want to add our last name to their name which I think he so endearing. I didn't expect it and didn't pressure them one way or another....but that is what they want and it will be great.
God has chosen me to birth 4 amazing kids for which I am so thankful and now at this time in my life...he has birthed 4 kids from my heart. My step son and the 3 the state delivered into our home. I love them so deeply and I am so thankful for each one.

Now to wait on the Lord and see what is coming just never knows...does one...none but the Lord!!!

Monday, March 14, 2011

In a mere moment

I still have a hard time these days organizing my thoughts enough to write something coherent. But I push myself to write because I for one enjoy reading blogs and get tired of opening someones blog seeing the same post for days, weeks, months. So I will attempt to write something somewhat sensible.

Events of late have been mentally and emotionally 'whelming.' From marriages within our family breaking up, long term employments being terminated, dear friends and family with serious health problems...then the 'Over' whelming part...that mere moment in time when core of your being is jolted...the earthquake in JAPAN. It took me several hours before I began to worry about Japan and the people there because one, I didn't see any of it on the news and two, because my pregnant daughter and my grandson were on alert in Hawaii for a tsunami. She was all alone because her naval husband was 'underway' and it was dark outside and she didn't know what to do. My heart absolutely sunk into the soles of my feet. I was utterly helpless. There was nothing I could do....but pray. After about a half an hour of wracking my nerves I decided to go to bed. My heart and my brain could not handle anymore. I know some would think I should stay up all night with my girl on the phone...but I could not. I would have had her freaked out. I knew I needed to let her focus on the news and assess situation. I told her to call me if anything changed. I headed off to bed and while I snuggled into my bed with a heavy spirit, I laid it before my creator in prayer. I feel asleep after a time...while praying. It was a restless night and I woke early. I sent my girl a text not knowing if she would be awake or not...she wrote right back and she was fine. She had the one and only person on that island that she knew come and stay with her. Her friend was more afraid then she was. They were a great comfort to each other. I was so thankful that God brought them together. I sat at my computer and cried. I was thankful they were safe...I was thankful my girl was not alone. What a relief. The next day as I saw the news stories and the videos...then my heart broke for Japan. Only God knew what was coming. Only God knew how to help those who would die and those who would survive. Even today....I still feel at a loss of what happened and what I could possibly do...I pray. Father be their comfort. Be the living God that they will see and will cling to. The God that saves and gives eternal life. You are the only god that can not be destroyed. The only god that can not be ignored. "YOU are mighty to save." I pray that we your people will be more mindful of you. That we will live each day as if it is our last. We will live each day as if it may be our 'neighbors' last. Help us God, those still walking this earth who serve you, to seek you. To continue to learn your word and to put it into practice. That we will share and live the 'Good News.'
Pray for Japan, pray for those who travel to help Japan. Pray for the unbelievers, pray for the believers.
God bless each of us.