Saturday, January 30, 2010

Please help Mekdes Shimeless

After reading my dear friend Heathers blog....I wanted to try and do a little more to help....hence this post.
Please read the post about 'Mekdes' and see how $much$ God would have you give.......

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Pray for Daniel.

So, I have a son...no a step son....well actually a nephew who I consider a son. In 1983, just a week or two after graduation I became an instant mom to 3. A young girl who never even had to clean her room, didn't really know how to cook, but here I was a Mom! The youngest was a beautiful blonde haired boy...9mths of age. The situation wasn't right, or was it righteous, but it was what it was. Sadly we can't change the past. It wasn't the easiest of times but they were beautiful times. The baby was beautiful and stole my heart. His name was/is Daniel. He was such a good baby. He was however pretty sickly. He had the worse sinus problems and I knew NOTHING, I did my best to care for him. He would wake up every night miserable. I would hold him until he could go back to sleep. I taught him to walk, to potty, to talk, to tie his shoes and so on. He was such a sweetheart. Always so good. As a young boy he really got into being a cowboy. He loved to wear his cowboy hat, help us on the farm and that boy was such a good worker. He would work hard and work for hours. He showed pigs at the county fair...one year taking best in show and best in showmanship. It was a good year. He made over $300 that year.

Then the ugly side of life happened. His parents made bad choices. His mom (being me), got too self centered and gave up on marriage. It was a dark time. When I went my way I took my 2 biological kids and wanted to take Daniel...but I wasn't allowed. I tried so hard but hurt and anger took a selfish stance and wouldn't allow it. So, now not only had Daniel lost his first mom..he lost his second one too. To make a long story short, Daniel took a nose dive and there was nothing I could do to help. My hands had been tied. My hands are still tied. This is the condensed version.

After many years of drug abuse, alcohol abuse, and living life on the edge...Daniel the sweet cowboy, turned broken man, landed in prison. Oh how my heart broke. Many days and years I have cried over that boy, unable to do anything...but pray...and now the ugly consequence to those choices. State prison. I would lay in bed and cry and cry over him. Sad and scared of what would happen to him there. Sad over my choices that started this ugly snowball. So I have prayed and continue to cry.... but I hold hope. Hope for him and his future. I pray with all that I am that God has spoken so loudly to Daniels heart that his heart has changed, I beg God that Daniels broken heart is healed.

Why do I write about this today? Because today is Daniel's release date! He gets out early. Praise God. I am so thankful and yet nervous. I feel so desperate for him. I so hope this road is one that he will experience true freedom. Freedom from hurt, anger, and rejection. A road He has chosen or will choose to walk the Almighty God and it will be full of joy and peace and freedom.

I am not a part of his life still...that has not been allowed by his jealous and selfish bio's. But I have written him letters. I sent him pics and told him how much I love him. So I will be happy he is out. I will be hopeful for his future. I will continue to pray. I will continue to love him with all my heart. I will watch him from the sidelines and know that he was my first born....he was born of my heart!

Pray for him....Pray he gets the start he needs. Pray he gets a job. Pray he keeps housing. Pray his heart has heard or will hear God and pray his life will be lived for his savior. Pray for that little cowboy turned handsome renewed man. Pray for Daniel.
Pictures to come later
p.s. as I was writing the list post....I received a pix message...Daniel is out. Praise God

Growing Up=Growing Old?

Some special kids in my life...I look at these two pics and think what the heck? How did they get so old and I stayed so young!?! Ha...right! Them getting older means...I'm getting older. Don't they understand that? Don't they know they need to STOP!
I love these kids. They mean so much to me. The first pic was taken about 7 or 8 years ago...the second pic taken on this last Thanksgiving! The first pic they were still in school and being footloose and fancy free. Pic two they each have (or going to have) at least one child...my what a few years changes in the lives of people. I know that from my life alone....I was a single working mom of 4...today I am a SAHM with a husband and 6 kids. A few years from now? Who knows??? Oh...there is someone who knows.....

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."



Not much...

Isn't much happening these days in the Porter home that I would want to take time to repeat on this blog, but I did just want to post something.....anything.
I am blessed beyond reason. I have a nice home and such beautiful kids. My husband is a work in progress which is better than a husband who has settled to stay the same. My parents are wonderful and I have a great extended family. Oh have I mentioned that all my family have homes...and we all have food, water, and clothing. I praise God for that.
These days we are working (the husband that is) and we are schooling, we are going to school, we are practicing piano, we are going to church, we are in Kidz Klub and Youth Group. We are in the process of going forward in the adoption of our youngest. We are still working on reunification for the other two. We are praying for Haiti's. We are praying for orphans. We are taking each day as it comes and God willing, we will have tomorrow to try and get it right again.
He never gives up on us. Praise God.

Deuteronomy 31:8b "He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Drafts....

I have several posts in the drafts of my blog. I start out full steam and then fizzle out. Sometimes because I start off whining and then decided it's too whiny to share or as I type I realized the message was meant for me! Many reasons I don't always finish a post...then something happens...a mass devastation, and it makes everything I was writing about so unimportant.
HAITI...a country and had never given much thought, until I stumbled on some blogs. This last year I have been following a Haitian missionary family and some parents in the US who are in the process of adopting. What was just a far off country with little meaning to me became a source of curiosity and enjoyment. Getting to know the bloggers and seeing what Haiti's was like. Riding the emotions of the bloggers from stories of their homelife or stories of adoption or stories of ministry. All of it trapped my heart. So much so that a day and half after the earthquake happened...I found out about it....and fear gripped my heart and tears stung my eyes. People I don't truly know...people I felt connected to in a weird cyber way...were possibly dead, injured or trapped. Even those who were in the midst of adoption...oh how my heart ached for them. I couldn't open the blogs fast enough or look at stories online quick enough. I am so glad they have survived...but I know their suffering is not over.
So much to pray for....they do not know me and probably never will but I will pray for them as much as I can. I can NOT even imagine what it is like. I can not imagine no medical care for my children. I truly can not comprehend what it would be like to sleep outside with my children because our house was not safe. I can NOT imagine what it would be like to not be able to give my children food or water. In less than a minute to have my entire world turned upside down.

Money and prayers.....nothing more I can do. Remember to pray even after the news reports stop reporting. Man...this is huge...but God is much bigger.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

'Firsts'

I am an older mom. I have been down many roads and have been going down different roads for many years. There isn't much I haven't been through yet in my life or the lives of my children. I have raised 3 step kids who are all adults now and have their own children. I have two grown children who have started their families as well. I still have several at home of various ages. So I have experienced and witnessed many things. But this I know...when your child is going through something for the first time...you have to be there for them %100. It's not always easy believe it or not, but worth it. I can't tell you how many teeth I have had to pay for but with each one I have to have excitement for that child. I can't tell you how many homemade gifts I have recived...countless...but each one is the greatest gift of all time. I'm tired these days and my enthusiasm is waning....but I give it my best. I show them this is the single greatest moment of all time.

Tonight...my step son 'A' went to his first formal. He is a High School Freshman. It was planned in December but due to poor weather it was canceled, so it happened tonight. Now in my heart I wasn't real excited about him going to a dance we spent too much on tickets, dress shirt, shoes, tie and portraits...but it's his first and so, I had the camera out taking pictures like I had never done this before. I sent him off with a smile on his handsome face. I listened to his stories when he came home and I will ooo and awwww over his pictures when we get them. Because this is his life, his time, his 'firsts.'


There are some first though, my heart will be deeply grateful for. Firsts that nothing can compare to and that is when each of my children, grandchildren and great grand children come to know Jesus as their savior. When they make that commitment and then go forward and get baptized. That will be 'firsts' I will never and can never tire of. Those are the 'firsts' I pray for. All these many 'firsts' are fun and exciting but are not eternal. The first time they can truly understand the saving grace of our Lord...that is eternal. A first forever.


So i will enjoy their 'firsts' and I will pray and hope and wait in anticipation as they have their names written in the 'Book of Life.'


"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that who ever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life"...John 3;16

Cousins Meet

My Son James, My Grandson Carter my Daughter Kari, and my newest Grandson William

The other day my son and his family came home from a long vacation. They finally met the newest addition to our family. What a beautiful set of kids......so dear to my heart. If only I could lock them in my heart and keep them there to keep them safe! Multitude of prayers......




Friday, January 1, 2010

2010

Holy cow...is it really a whole year since last New Years? I can not believe how fast 2009 flew by...but I am not sad to see it go. It was a pretty rough year. So, it's a new year a fresh start. Who knows what this year will bring. My hopes are....in no particular order...just my random thoughts.


1. The baby in our home becomes our legal child.

2. Two of the other children in our home will be reunited with their bio parent/s and if not, that they too become our legal children.

3. My husband and I would attain a good grasp our finances.

4. My marriage would become what it should be in Gods eyes.

5. We would have an abundant and overwhelming drive to eat healthier.

6. I would regain organized control over my home and homeschooling.

7. Singing ministry would finally take root.

8. My adult kids would get stable in their finances and their homes.

9. Grow and strengthen my prayer life.

10. My husband would stay on the path....

11. My children would stay healthy.


There are many things...but this is a good start to that 'Hope List!' So 2010 is here...let's get rolling...God is on the move....