Friday, September 25, 2009


My very favorite Christian Rock band is in town tonight....AND I can't go. It's CASTING CROWNS! I did not have enough money. I could have bought a ticket for me in the cheap seats but I couldn't bring myself to do that. I have 6 kids, 3 of which are huge Casting Crown fans and 1 who is new to them but would love to go to a concert. BUT...I could not afford a ticket for all of them so I chose not to go myself. HUGE bummer! I so love their music and greatly appreciate their ministry. Oh well....I know...there are worse things in life...BUT it is a huge bummer. Here is a previous post about them...

Casting Crowns

Just had to vent a little........

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Much about nothing

Haven't really had anything of value to post about lately. Have been feeling pretty whelmed with life as of late. Some of what goes on in my world can't be posted about because of confidentiality...sadly. But I will someday. I can say this....we will be pursuing adopting our foster children. If all goes well all should be said in done in February and possibly March. Lots of hills to climb at this time though.

I need some huge changes in my life or death may come early. I think my body would just give out. Some of the changes are faith. I have to learn to let go more. Let go and let God so the saying goes. But so true. When my marriage sucks and decisions are being made I do not agree with I MUST learn to place my trust in God....because HE will not let me down. Other changes are my eating habits. Enough is enough. I am not fat and happy. I am miserable and I am not sure how to get to where I need to be mentally. I am asking God for wisdom on that one. I must get more organized. Life is whirling out of control so it's time to change the plan of action and attack from a different angle. There are others I am sure.....

God is the Creator and he is the savior...I know he will help me through, so I have to be faithful and let Him work it out in me and through me!
I am not perfect or anywhere near perfect...but I do know the one I serve is!
"That He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 1:6

Thursday, September 10, 2009

In Memory of 9-11 seems so long ago, and yet ....not, that the day which shook all of America and many in other parts of the world occurred. The day innocent lives were lost because of evil. This is my memory of that day.....

The year was 2001. I was a single working mother of 4. As was my routine every morning when I worked full time at the American Red Cross, I turned on my bedroom tv to catch the local news for traffic updates. The morning of September 11th the difference in the sound and sights that came from my little tv in my bedroom was immediately different. With a towel on my head (from my morning shower) and makeup bag in hand I sat entranced on the side of my bed. Trying to get my mind to understand what was being said and shown. It was Matt Lauer speaking and there the one of the WTC Towers was on fire. Then suddenly there was a quick glimpse of something across the screen and then a huge explosion on the other tower. The second plane had hit. I felt frozen in time. None of it seemed real....realizing this was happening in America my country.....
I finished getting ready and was of course running a few minutes late. Got the two little ones dropped off at daycare and the other two to school. Driving into work I would usually pray and sing but I tuned in the radio. I heard them speaking of the Pentagon, another plane in the air, airports being shut down and then.....did I really hear them say one of the towers collapsed? That could not be possible. I didn't believe it even. My mind was reeling.
I walked into work and it seemed a little quieter than normal but it didn't take long for the entire place to erupt into chaos. TV's were on in the donor waiting area and the Pheresis department. Talk started about how donors would be coming in and we needed to prepare. My boss made it clear to me and the others in my department if we were not 'donor' trained then we were to carry on business as usual. Business as usual? This was a national tragedy...nothing usual about it. As I delivered documents I saw coworkers running and scrambling around trying to get the donor room set up in the atrium (a much larger area) not all collections staff had arrived to work yet. As I rounded the corner....what I saw i couldn't believe. A line of people going out the door of our poor coworkers were overwhelmed. It was pretty chaotic. I put the documents back on my desk and decided "I will do what I NEED to do and if I get fired then God has other plans for me..." So I went to the Atrium and started helping to set up the Canteen area. Moving, lifting, was truly remarkable. The donors were lined up out the door and around the corner of the street. Some where nurses coming forward to ask if they could help draw donors (which they could not due to regulations) and the phones were ringing off the hook. The American public wanted to help. They wanted to do something in the darkness of that catastrophic day....and we as Red Cross Employees did too! We wanted to help our wounded country. We wanted to save lives. We worked for hours processing donors, passing out cookies and water and magazines and just lending a listening ear to those who wanted to talk about what they saw that morning. I could only work my 8 hours but MANY of the collections staff, facilities staff, and supervisors worked well into the evening. The lines lessened each day but still there was an outpouring of loving hearts wanting to give. the days and weeks after, Red Cross received a huge bad wrap. We were accused of throwing away blood, taking blood when we didn't need it...and so and so on the stories went. It broke our hearts. We were only responding to a tragedy. We were responding much like the nation.
We could only store so much blood and only for so long in order for it to be safe and usable...... and we were overwhelmed. Our facilities were overwhelmed, our testing labs were overwhelmed, our staff did a great job. Sadly as we came to learn, there were not many survivors needing blood transfusions....but who could have known, who of us could have imagined. It was a frightening day, it was a day of such sorrow, it was a day of such love, it was a day of being proud to be an American....and even today 8 years still possesses the same feelings......the same feelings to me! I was very proud to have worked for the Red Cross and I was and am to proud to be an American.
That is my memory of that day....I no longer work for Red Cross, instead I work at home raising my kids and raising those kids who were born to others but have now been born of my heart. This day I will pray for those left behind, who's family members and friends were taken. I will pray for our soldiers who need to come home NOW. I will pray for our country, that we will turn back to God. Cheesy but very true....God Bless America!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Northwest Adoption Exchange

As some of you know I like to make a posting highlighting a few of the kids in the Northwest who are in need of a loving, safe, and happy home. Checkout the website to see a few of the other kids listed Northwest Adoption Exchange. Pray and see if your home would be the home for one or more of these kids!

Here are just a few in Oregon:

Here are a few in Washington:

and Idaho:

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Blog Hop - Baby PIcs

Today is a 'Blog Hop' provided by 'Where Laughter Lives' titled Baby Pics. I can NOT decide or choose which picture to post so here are a couple.......this is my grandson CJ and my foster baby BG. I am soooo blessed!!! I could have posted page after page of great baby photos from my bio kids too....just too many beautiful faces in my life to choose from.....