Friday, February 25, 2011

Finally...








We finally had some winter weather. It didn't last long, but it was sweet while it was here. Yesterday we had a snow day. We got 3 to 4 inches of snow....enough to cancel school and go outside and roll around. I love Western Oregon for this reason. We usually don't have ongoing inclement weather. I remember once we had a bad freezing rain storm and we were without electricity for 3 days...but the worse I remember. I lived in Eastern Oregon for 4 years and the first winter there was horrible. It was the worse and longest winter they had, had in years. Lucky me! Oc
tober came and the snow started to fall. It was exciting and awesome at first...but when January and then February and then March came around and we still had a bunch of snow on the ground...I was done. Not only was I new to that weather but we had moved onto a farm. The fences were in disrepair as the cows soon found out. I had to feed them everyday and break the ice off the water. It took us a while to get tank heaters, and water pipe heaters all hooked up running. Oh the whole other aspect was driving...thankfully God had blessed us with a 1 ton 4 wheel drive Suburban before we moved there. I would have been housebound many times and then I would suffered 'cabin fever' as well. It was an interesting winter...I learned alot and one of the most valuable things I learned while I was there...I much prefer the Oregon on the West side of the mountains.
Here are a few pics from our 'Snow Day' excluding the 2 teens who preferred to stay inside.
I will be honest and say I did pray and ask God to give us at least one day of snow...and He was gracious and did. Thank you Father. We had a great day.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Name that star....

I was blessed to attend a worship seminar yesterday with 4 other people and what a blast I had. I haven't participated in anything like that in a long time. The speaker of the seminar was very gifted and I enjoyed it very much. Out of the many things that touched my heart yesterday, this one thing I want to share.

The bible says God named every star. EVERY star? That is what his word says. There are more stars than we as humans can count. They use to say there is a trillion...now they know it more. So, let's think about a trillion. the speaker said if you count 2 numbers per second up to a trillion...how long would it take? Do you know how long??? 15 THOUSAND...YEARS! wowza! Do we serve an amazing Almighty God?

YES we do!!!

Blessings that go 'BAM!'

You know how you have a request on your heart that you know only the Father in heaven can answer? You know how you lay that request at his feet often and wait to see what the outcome will be? There is ALWAYS an answer to that prayer. Sometimes the answer is no, sometimes the answer is silence, sometimes the answer is yes...and then the yes is fulfilled in the darnedest way....
That is what happened to me in January. First of all I ended the year sick...and began the year sick...fun fun! Then 01-11-11 came. Me and 3 of my girls were on my way home from a 'science lab' my girls attended, we had just went through a signal light, traffic came to a sudden stop and 'BAM'....the cargo truck behind me used my van to stop. He was going about 40mphs. Wow...it packed a punch. Scared me and my girls pretty good. I have always known I don't do well in emergency, think fast situations and that day I proved it. God knew this about me and had a young, kind, helpful man in front of me (I ran into his Subaru wagon...but didn't cause any damage to his vehicle). The cargo van behind me pulled off to the side and never came to check on us...I think he was pretty dazed and to make matters worse he was driving his 'work' truck. I was shaking so bad I found it hard to find my information. It also happened to be a cold day, a 32 degrees kind of afternoon. Me being the mature, well experienced woman that I am, I called my mommy and daddy and said "help." So they came and helped me with the girls. It took about an hour to swap info and wait for the tow truck. Though my van didn't sustain much damage in the front (A slight buckle) it wouldn't start, so I had to have it towed. The pictures I have don't show all the damage, but most of it. Glass shot from the back half up through the van, but fortunately my girls were not hurt. We spent a couple of days very sore and me very down. This is when the answer to prayer came about...

One of my hopes and prayers I have had was for a bigger vehicle. I, of course, had my plan. We would pay off my husbands truck come May, then go and buy a bigger van and keep my mini van. It was, after all, paid off, had new brakes and tires and we had never had a problem with it. I knew as soon as the wreck happened...my van was totalled...and it was. It was a sad day when the wrecking yard came to tow 'her' away to the junk yard. She deserved a better resting place than that. sigh. I knew and acknowledge that the Almighty God had my life in his hands. I knew everything would work out. I knew God was allowing everything to fall into place...and yet the heavy weighed in my heart. Dumb huh...over a vehicle. It wasn't just that I was attached to the van, it was the hope and plans of having no car payments were paid off on my husbands truck we would be able to use that money to pay off some other bills. It was a little bit of fear of what vehicle we would get next. Say...a 'lemon.' My heart was a little heavy...but on the upside my spirit was willing. I didn't drag myself around wounded. I focused on God and prayed for the sadness to go away. For HIS plan to be revealed. I knew we couldn't afford a 2nd car payment...so I wondered how...

We did have a very nice rental van for 2 weeks. My kids LOVED it. DVD player, heated seats and many bells and whistles. I told the kids we were on a "van vacation." They were sad to see it go.

I would sit at my desk and wonder how it would all work out. We would have to use what little the insurance company would give us and buy a used van, knowing full well that any van we bought would be older and high in miles and have issues....BUT...for one of the first times ever...I really did give it over to God. I said...I have NO idea what to do or how this will work out. I need YOU to reveal this to us....and He did! Long story short, we found a newer used van (more money than I would have ever considered paying at this time) and the 'bank' gave us enough for the new 'to us' van to pay off the husbands truck and our payments were cut in half. Amazing. And so...what did we end up with? A new to us mini van? NOPE...we ended up with a beautiful 12 passenger van...just what we needed (and wanted). There is so much more to this story.... but I will end this lengthy post with this. I am not sure why God allowed us to go through what He did...but I know, He knew best. I know this van we are driving today is directly from him.

Tuesday night....I had 10 kids in the van to go to 'Kidz Klub' at church...it was a beautiful sight!

Some days I miss my mini van, but I am thankful for the blessing that God gave us...plus it has FM radio and a CD player....to me that is better than gold.

I will admit every time the thought of having a bigger house crosses my mind...I push it out of my thoughts. If he allowed a wreck to happen in order to get the bigger van...It makes me nervous to think what could happen to get a bigger house....lol

Now...to see if God has plans for us for more kids...........

Monday, February 7, 2011

Whew...yep, I'm here

I wrote this before Thanksgiving, threw it into drafts because I was nervous to share my frailty...today I just reread it and decided to go ahead and post it....

11/14/10
Life in the Porter household is going...well...it's going...and it's going quickly. It seems the time flies faster than a greyhound on a race track. The days go oh so quickly and I don't seem to accomplish much. It's frustrating. I know some of it is my fault (going to keep it real). I am not always a good steward of my time. I spend too much time on the computer and on returning text messages. I work on curriculum for the kids group I direct at my church and I also spend time trying to figure out how to help my girls with their homeschool/virtual lessons. Three hours of their lessons and I am spent. It's not fun. It's not exciting and some days I have had to repent because of my anger directed towards my girls for not doing their part. Education sucks anymore. Finances suck. People suck and well pretty much...you would think my version of life sucks...BUT it doesn't. I have beautiful healthy kids and grandkids. God is good all the time, even when we are not. He is gracious and loving. Though I may not hold up well all the time...ok, most of them time....I do know I am blessed. I do know God has a purpose for me and I do what I can to fulfill that purpose.
We have had a few bouts of this and that. From stomach flu, to respiratory virus to allergic reaction to earrings. Otherwise, we have been pretty darn good. I have elected this year to get everyone a flu shot...well most everyone. I didn't get the baby one. They have to have two separate shots...and to be honest...I can't do that to her. My huz hasn't had one yet and doesn't appear to be wanting...he is now getting over a nasty respiratory illness. I like to think that 'my' flu shot kept me from getting it. I am hoping these darn shots will helps us to keep from getting so sick this year. The schools are full of so many bugs and the come flying home to us. Here's to flu shots...cheers!


Sometimes I feel pretty trapped in life...like a prisoner. It's not that I don't like my job.."wife, mother, superhero." It's the poor finances, it's the lack of energy, the lack of self control over food, and it's the lack of knowledge. All of that makes me feel like a prisoner. A prisoner to this flesh that I can't seem to conquer. I feel pretty pathetic the other day when I watched an Oprah episode I had recorded on my DVR. It has Ingrid Betancourt (look her up online...incredible women with an incredible experience) She has a new book out called, "Even Silence Has an End"

On the Oprah show she made statement...I tried to get it all down..it went like this..."A letter from Paul to the Romans, he was talking about a vision he had. He was suffering alot, and he hears Jesus say "my grace is sufficient for your needs." He doesn't need anything else to overcome his pain than the grace of Jesus. The more fragile he was the more stronger he was." That struck my heart. I know what passage she is referring to... I have read it and heard it many many times...but that night...it struck me. God spoke it into my heart. God knew where I would be at this point in my life. He knew what condition mentally, physically, spiritually I would be in. He also knew what part he wanted me to play in His kingdom on earth. It is through my weaknesses he shows his grace...he shows his mercy...he shows his power! His grace is all I need. I may want more. I want an easy fix for finances...after all it didn't take a lot of work or time to get them this messed up. His grace is sufficient daily. I want to be thinner and healthier. I want self control. I will continue to work on it...until my die most likely. So for now I remember...HIS grace is sufficient. As I let go and give myself over to him....I can and will be a witness unto Him. I may not have it all figured out... I may still be overweight, tired, broke before payday, and so on....in my weakness' God will use me. I'm not hiding my shortcomings in the name of Jesus..I am laying them at His feet. He knew what I was and what I was capable of before He chose me. So in spite of my frail flesh...He will bless others in spite of me. Praise God. He will bless whom HE chooses...HE will bless how HE chooses. I love my creator. Praise be to HIS name!!!