I want to write, I want to share, I want to get on here and spill my heart....but it seems my mind is always a jumbled mass of much! This jumbled mass seems to have difficulty forming a sentence. Difficulty just forming coherent thoughts. Nothing is wrong mind you...I can think but it seems with so much going on, the thinking is on overload and it tends to 'spark' inside this skull.
I enjoy reading other blogs and yet seem to have a hard time doing that even. Facebook....maybe it's facebooks fault. Short little tidbits. Teency bits of information here and there...it seems to fit my mental lifestyle....or has it trained me to find comfort in those teency bits of information? Nah...it's just me.
We have had our bouts with illness'. From strep throat, to colds, to stomach flu. Good times! not!
We are in the middle of the adoption for our youngest. She is legally free...I guess you could say she is an orphan now. Sad that it came to that. Sad her bio Mom wasn't able to straighten things out in her life. Thankful God chose us to raise this baby. Hopefully, and God willing, she will be the newest Porter this summer. I will be glad when it's legal and she is officially ours.
Speaking of summer. Oh how happy I was to think about summer. Couldn't wait for the break. Then it hit and oh how hectic it is. One set of obligations stops for summer and a whole new set starts. I am still enjoying the summer break though. A break from my kids schooling. A break from...well just several things.
I have done some outside work. Some flower planting, blackberry cutting, weeding and I planted 4 tomato plants. This week my husband has vacation and since we don't have the funds to go anywhere we will stay home and put energy into home projects. Yesterday and today we started a carport/storage shed cleaning and reorganization. We have purchased some new (to us) shelving to use out there. Hope to plug up some holes and make it a little more difficult for the pesky rodents to get in. They have ruin enough stuff. I would rather be on a vacation but I am thankful we have a home to spend time at. Very thankful.
Looks at though I will be taking the dreaded trip to Hawaii. Don't get me wrong...Hawaii has been been my dream trip for most of my life. I did a report on Hawaii when I was in grade school and have wanted to go ever since. I have dreamed and dreamed of going there...BUT...now I go for a different purpose. I have been 'enlisted' to go and help my daughter move there. I will be escorting my daughter (the one given to me by God with much prayer) and my precious grandson. I will only be there 3 nights. Most of that will be babysitting while my daughter and son inlaw spend 'time' together. It's a sad journey for me...one that I will spend my return flight fighting back tears. We will be going to Honolulu/Pearl Harbor. I am trying to focus on the good. Focusing on the fact my kids are not in a foreign country. The fact I am only leaving them until we can see each other again at Christmas. I am not losing them to death..MUCH to be thankful for. It is what my daughter wants. All of that should make me feel better...and it does. My heart is broke but at least it's not devastated beyond repair. So I will enjoy the long flight where I can hold, kiss, hug, and wrestle my grandson whom I adore. It will be a time my girl and I can have a few hours to focus on each other. Once there...maybe my little man and I can venture to a sandy beach and enjoy the palm trees and sand and water. Him and I can get a coconut drink and soak up some sun...yeh...that's the ticket!!!
So far this month we had a baby girl turn 13 (sad...very sad! lol) and a baby girl turn 2! Whew...big milestones. I am still always perplexed at how quickly time passes.
Lots on my mind and heart but not much I want to spew out on this blog right now. Trying to keep it light. Life is not light so we can choose to keep all that is heavy and difficult at the forefront or put it aside and move on. Focus on what is good. Not always easy but I have found it does help.
'Finally brothers whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is true, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -think about such things.'