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So I am sharing my heart here. I know God's truth and I have faith but right at this moment this is my mommy heart..... My oldest daughter is 21, pregnant and not married. That was one hill to manage...and we did. The daddy now lives with said daughter. No I do not agree this is what is best, but it's their choice and I still love her. THEN said daddy who applied for the Navy months ago NOW has an entry date. October 7th. NOW...my heart struggles painfully. This Mommy's mind is whirling. I had dealt with the fact my baby girl would travel this world with this sailor...but when I considered that, I did not consider the fact my baby girl would indeed have her own baby when traveling. Now the thought of her leaving is breaking my heart. The thought of her figuring out this motherhood business on her own makes me sad. The fact she will be where there are no friends, only her boyfriend/fiancee/husband (whatever he will be) makes me want to cry. I know she will survive...I KNOW I...

This is a good book. It helps the reader to refocus their faith and encourages them to a deeper relationship with Jesus. It's an easy read, enjoyable and insightful.

This week at Kelly's Korner she is highlighting 'Baby Showers. I held a baby shower last year for my Daughter I n-Law. She was going to give birth to my first grandchild. It was a pretty typical baby shower....with the exception of a few twists I threw in here and there.....Such as for the 'name the white powder' game, for the tie breaker I took a jar of sweet corn baby food, added green food coloring and they had to name the flavor. Changing the color of food has a big impact on flavor...just look at their faces! It too them several guesses to get it right. That is the grandma and the Great Grandma in a 'taste off.' Then....since Dad was present at the shower....we did the 'how long is the string' game. Where usually you cut off a piece of string that you believe will be the same size as moms waist...since most of the attendants had been to previous showers I did not have to explain the rules of the game....hence I did not have to lie. BECAUSE the twist...

On August 8th my grandson turned 1. I can't believe it was a year ago we waited with such anticipation for his arrival. He is so beautiful and precious. He has a gentle and kind spirit...like his mommy and daddy. He is a doll and I am so thankful for him.

As we, my family, continue this journey there are some big changes coming for two of my kiddos. Changes that could potentially alter their personalities but i am praying it won't and if it does, I pray it's only to strengthen them. Please be praying for the heart and spirit of these two 'littles.' We as humans alter the perfect design for families through selfish self centered choices. Then the youngest members of the family suffer for it. They have no control and are not allowed any decision making. They are just pulled along in the life. Since the 'two' came to live with us it has been my prayer for healing, healing on their parents and healing of the two 'littles.' Always praying Gods will be done. So as the road is starting to make a turn I am praying for God to hold our hands a little tighter and help us around the curve.....and I know he will. He desires for these kids to be loved, happy, and safe. He will continue to work out that plan. God bless ...

I finally asked someone to tell me how to change the name of a link...I never had time to figure it out....ok maybe I just never took time to figure it out...but now I know and it's sooooo simple. Thanks to MY FRIEND I can now title the links I insert. Ahhhhh...it only took me over a year! I know...I'm an overachiever! ha!

My all time fav spots are all on the Oregon Coast. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the Oregon coast and I am very proud of it. It's beautiful, peaceful, serene, and FUN!!! We go there as much as possible which isn't as much as we would like but at least it is driving distance. My other fav is the Happiest Place on Earth. I hav e been a total of 3 times but it was the last 2 times I went that were the best. The first time when I was in high school and the singing group I was a part of went. The second time was in 2000 when I took my older two kids and my niece . We had a great time BUT the dream that came true was the trip I took back in October of 08. My two youngest girls and I saved and saved and we finally was able to go. We had the best time ever. An absolute perfect beautiful trip. They are now both Disneyland lovers. I would love to be able to go more often but working hard to be able to go makes you appreciate it so much. AND the place I DREAM of going on vacation......I have dream...

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As part of our women's 'Reconnection' at our place of fellowship we have been studying the Fruit of the Spirit...the 4th one being patience. I enjoyed the information so, but what has spoken to me even more is when I looked up the King James Version this week. Instead of Patience...it says Longsuffering. Part of our study of patience was how many, if not most, times we are taught patience by experiencing trials. Patience isn't given to you...it's is learned. So when I read the word 'Longsuffering' my heart was so stirred. YES...that's it. Longsuffering...to suffer for a period of time with or for something. If you are experiencing a trial....you may suffer long before the resolution comes. If you are praying for a loved one...you may pray for a 'long' while for them. This is the patience. Be prepared to wait...wait on the Lord. Wait for his answer. Wait for his result. They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. Wait....and wait some...

Though my girls always say "mom...your hot !" (they do it to make me laugh) but that is not why it's been too hot! This darn heat wave we have been having. I am just not a heat fan....would that be a pun? :-) I can do one day or two...but three or more...I get cranky. The house gets messy, the laundry piles and it just creates crankiness. Now I know there are people who live this all the time..but worse. I am sorry...no really. I'm sorry you suffer so...but at this moment, on my blog I am discussing my crankiness! It's hot. We have 3 AC's going and it still gets hot. I am so thankful for those AC's though. Without them we would have had to go to a hotel in order for me to su rvive. Today has been better and it promised to get better in the couple of day. We may even have some rain. There is hope! So, when it's hot I don't blog as much and I don't email as much. The PC is just too hot! So that is my summer rant. I am hoping and praying the '...